Category Archives: Personal

Making Friends with MS

I’ve had MS – multiple sclerosis – since 1988 At first it was ‘remitting-relapsing.’ Then it progressed. I can stand up, but I can’t walk unassisted. I once loved dancing the hora. I didn’t really know how, but that didn’t … Continue reading

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Remember, Growing Older

“I don’t remember growing older. When did they?” So sang Tevya, with pride and joy, in ‘Sunrise, Sunset’. We also don’t remember our friends growing older. Then suddenly. they die. I think how much more I could have learned from … Continue reading

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The Question is Not …

When Mary was diagnosed with cancer, she was already Stage IV. Do I understand her pain? Of course not. Do I understand her needs? Of course not. Do I understand her anger? Of course not. The question is not: “Do … Continue reading

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And Now …

She kissed me! at midnight, dreary and weary with her chemotherapy. as we welcomed 2014, the new year. Memories of accomplishments fade, along with the praise of close friends. Memories of conversations fade, and the problems we discussed, and the … Continue reading

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Shadow

She just slipped away. It’s amazing. One minute, you’re here, the next, you’re gone. She was dying, we knew, barely able to walk. We thought her eyesight was going, at the end. She had lost control of her bowels weeks … Continue reading

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Neither Here nor There on New Year’s Eve

Outside, it is New Year’s Eve: Fireworks, noisemakers, parties. People await the magic moment. Inside, I am outside time, listening to the winter lights. I am not at Pittsburgh’s 2001 First Night, wandering downtown, trying to choose which performances interest … Continue reading

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Chamber Music Concert

Tonight, chamber music. I have been arguing and debating, fussing and fuming, about this election for almost a year. For years, actually. And here, right in front of me, the truth. Mendelssohn, Brahms, Bach … Harmony, oneness … Not just … Continue reading

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